the bodhi way

The last time when i thought the hardest transformation in my life are when changing from a player who love to play a warrior job in mmorpg into a full time healer character. It took me many months before i can really start to like and play a healer , with the starting as "this team member of mine is a mob that i must hit until the red bar full..." The torture of transforming was one great and lengthy effort. However, once i become a healer, it really worth the efforts. I thought this could be the hardest one i'll go through , or so i thought until...

I come across the buddha religion precepts. The buddha precepts is actually had a simple few rules of conduct that is for the beneficial of the sentient being that practise it ( yet at the same time it had many rules that one should observe properly ) . for example, one should be a vegetarian and avoid eating meat. I had been for a few times ate some dishes thinking it is vegetarian only to found out it has meat. The other rule that stated avoid harming others can be equally difficult to follow especially if one had been poked by others for continuous five years...
Yet i can be pretty amaze at times thinking the God emperor are said to face each challenges of his for few hundred thousand years (and each of his challenge are said to be the same hundreds years length time). As for me, it do seem that unless i learn the lesson well and reach the next level of thinking , whatever troubling me will probably repeat as long as it want. (dreading to think that i will have to rerepeat again in my next life~~~)

I too myself had no idea how long i can stays eating vegetarian. There are all sorts of comments coming from staying a vegetarian . (even the fact that one will become not healthy and have malnuttrients stories). It is said that drinking milk a lot only can cause one die faster (or so i heard). At the very least dieing due to drinking milk too much may be very good for me compare dieing in a not happy working environment (caused by others that playing office politics). At the very least it is far better to die because of my own negligience/ignorance than it was coming from others).