phobia of past

Apparently the feeling of being harrass and attacked wasn't quite coming down yet. just from time to time , i am still getting the feeling of being monitor by the same group of people for what i am going to buy , eat and do. So much for getting involve in a heavily office politics company and i still couldn't shake off the feeling that this group of people are still monitoring my move whenever i step outside of my house. and perhaps spreading some rumors to tick me off as usual???

and it can be getting worse as they are still trying to drop off some rumors (although i can't remember any of it excepts the mothers who i think are using their childrens as a tool for their career). So much for the past where the doting parents will do anything to make sure that their children will grow up in a happy environment. you can't really expect others to spare your children if the you as a parents had actually involve your own children for office politics reason.  It do seem to me that the parents nowadays no longer know what is right and wrong themself and chances are this trend is may be growing in the coming future times. if the parents themself do not know what is right and wrong, chances are their children will grow up making more worse decision than their parent do .   Unlike teachers who may be teaching childrens and become better as the time pass by. A parents may only have one chance which is at as that time only as their kids will continue grows up and there is a saying that says that  "no parents make such big mistakes as when their children dies before them without saying goodbye to them" . There are times when there are things shouldn't be starting at all . for example : letting your child taking drugs / letting them got into the environment that lead them to take drugs eventually. because your kids may no longer be alive because of that 1 small mistake.