hatred

hatred are really one of the most destroying emotions. i had been through the situation where there is a person had done an injustice thing to me in the past. after 2 years since i left the company, i found my hatred are still there. perhaps this is because this person ask others to make me angry whenever they saw me. for example, they will say something only us will know but to other strangers they think it is just a normal casual talk. but regardless how it turn out, it don't change the fact i hate and angry this person. but perhaps one thing that no one really notice about it is that the hatred do not stop once they stop talking. for me, it multiply with each passing days.

but if by any chance those who know my stories  and also happen to know those people who doing it. you can guess why once i put them in black list, i do not intend to move them to whitelist anymore. I can't really forgive people who pretend that they have repent but when no one looking at them, they will find opportunity to undo me. 

it always puzzle me that this person who done injustice to me can manage to find so many people volunteer to do evil things that hurt and harm others. It even puzzle me that these people who help this people are that easily to be deceive to do things like this. perhaps they had never ever listen  "do not harm others"  things before at all. or perhaps their parents are doing same thing so it is a norm for them too.

unfotunately had to said that this battle of hatred was the most toughest battle i am having now. i don't know if i'll ever win in this life time at all. worst of all, they are people who look for opportunity to make a bigger bomb on top of the existing huge bomb. 

And if there is one thing one should learn is that not because the person is older than you, he/she will be able to distinguish what is virtue or non-virtue. There are still alot of people who think non-virtue as virtue act just because everyone is doing it.