To be able to live doing what you love to do

To be able to live doing what you love to do and live a good life is probably takes a lot of merits and blessings to be reaching there. unfortunately for me, my life never been the same again as how i used to be. It wasn't very good back then, but it certainly had become more worst now. But on the other hand, i am still alive now (at one point of time i was going through a phase which i call it near dying phase ) .

So, i guess i had to be very appreciative to buddha for the reason i am still alive now. The buddha religion and their mantra are one of the big reason why i am still alive now. like a sheep, i am lost .without buddha religion, i probably are dead.  i keep on questioning myself what i am suppose to do from now on . and its been 2 years since i'm like that. apparently my spring are starting to get rusty and old it seem. There are people who actually give me some temporary goals too but unfortunately i do not really click with their suggestions otherwise i am working hard on it now. Strangely, i still love writing so much that even when i do about complaining about life, half of the time i will still prefer writing it out (*except when i seriously need to declare it to the sky). I guess i couldn't stop writing be it for good reason or bad purpose :S And it seem like blogging now seem to become my online diary . Oh gosh, i don't intend to blog out my life that very much but the idea that i once thought nice to write , seem to be going out of my memory the instant i thought about it =X

Perhaps the best antidote to my present situation is to do something i really like (regardless how small it is). this theory is something i haven't really confirm how important it will be in the coming times. 

so thats all for today as my practise writing section. Have a good time ;)